Proverbs 5:4 but in the end, she is bitter as wormwood, sharp as a two-edged sword

There was a continual sadness about him. For years we were best friends, always together, adventures. We loved pots of Earl Grey Tea in fancy shops, as we talked over our latest books, The Glass Bead Game, Siddhartha, Man Alone With Himself, The Metaphysics of Ethics, and the list went on and on. We went around the University second-hand book shops on sleet driven winter days searching for treasures. Huddled over pots of tea we discussed our beliefs and our understandings.

On weekends beer and wine were mingled with salads as we trundled and staggered from wine bar to wine bar in search of enlightenment. Eventually, drugs made an appearance and our relationship strained.

As I think back I remember the good times, feeding squirrels in the park on spring days, laughing at just being alive, going to the Botanical Gardens on frosty February Tuesdays and being the only people there, standing in the tropical glasshouse as if we were kings of the world. Selling our David Bowie tickets to go watch Star Wars sword fights together. There were so many good times. But as I reflect on those days, and as I came to understand the reasons behind the sadness, I felt helpless.

Years later as a Christian I went back to talk to my friend, he knew what I said was true but refused to consider any changes. We are still what I would consider friends, his sadness still sits on him each day. My prayer for him is that he discovers a different two-edged sword that will set him free.

KNOWLEDGE

The outcome, the outstanding account, the overdue payment, the onset of despair, the awful consequences. What a terrible thing it is to come into a place of recognition of the gravity that are the results of disobedience, naivety, and recklessness.

We walk through the carnage of our choices and cravings, we wander through the waste of our wealth and the residue of our rationale.

We stand amongst the devastation of our own decisions, looking around, wondering perhaps how we ever got here.

We sit with our head in our hands, tasting the bitterness of disillusionment – recognising in our pain, that it was all an illusion anyway, we have been snared, and our wrestling in the snare has made it only wrap itself tighter around our mind and our heart until we can see no way forwards, and no way backwards.

But wait, regret is knocking softly at the portcullis in our mind, grace is disclosing at the door of our heart, hoping somehow to draw our attention, to lead us back to our father’s embrace, where his kindness will lead us safely to repentance.

We glance with a hint of hope back to our stifled memories, we hear the faintest voice whisper  “my son, be attentive to my wisdom, incline your ear to my understanding’, and a slight shiver runs through us, perhaps all is not lost, there is hope, with God’s help we can rebuild.

Grace calls us to come and be held, to weep our tears of godly sorrow, to turn back to the father and to allow him to establish our ways. There is a place to come for comfort, for the challenge and for calling – it’s never too late with God.

UNDERSTANDING

Let’s pick one word from this verse to look closer at and see if that can help us gain a deeper insight into how God would love us to live?

The word for “wormwood” in Hebrew is pronounced “la’anah” and this word appears 7 times in the Old Testament. In the ESV it is translated into the English words, bitter and wormwood. The idea of this word includes the aspect of gall and even poison. Gall mixed with wine could also be used as a narcotic to reduce pain, and when Jesus refused the cup of wine and gall, he was refusing to allow the world to have a say in his destiny, no matter the cost to himself.

WISDOM – what conversation do you need to have with God today?

STRENGTHS THOUGHT: Focus locates the important issues in life – they may not be urgent. Focus creates time for people and gives its full attention, drawing others into long term goals with shared thoughts.

Allan’s Unauthorised Version – [the residue on the far side is disagreeable to taste, full of anxiety and despair, intensely bitter, accursed, fierce like a dagger or a drought.]

PRAYER: Father, thank you for today. Help me to consider the outcomes as I make decisions today. Thank you!

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